It has been such a long time since I have written here. I started this far later than I wanted to, and then have slacked again.
So much has changed since the last post. Carson will be 9 months old on Monday. That is amazing to me. He is such a little man with such an amazing personality already. I see so much of both of us in him on a daily basis. He has his daddy's facial expressions and my laid back demeanor. Every day is a new adventure with him.
Carson started crawling about a week after he turned 7 months old. I couldn't believe it! He is all over the place now. At times, I feel like he is going to take off and start walking any day. He loves to stand and gets excited, which in turn makes him fall down. He is such a wonderful little boy.
I read a blog this morning that was posted by a friend. Their 4 month old daughter died last week while at the babysitter's house. She stopped breathing and was unable to be saved. I read the blogs that her mother has been writing since the day she died. All I could think of was, "What if that happened to me?" I can't even think about how that would effect me. I look forward to spending time with Carson every day, seeing him grow into a little man. I don't know how I would handle losing him so suddenly, or at all for that matter. There is nothing more sad that parents burying their children. I never understood the depth of that statement until I became a mother myself. And I can honestly understand now why they say a parent's love is unconditional. I couldn't imagine never having a relationship with my boy. It's one of God's greatest gifts. I don't know how some take advantage of that and live with that decision...
I am truely blessed with a wonderful husband and a wonderful little boy that reminds me of his daddy every day. Life is so short...and it's really too bad that it takes losing people close to you to make you realize that.
