I feel like a horrible blogger. I made this blog so that I was able to keep everyone up to date on Carson and how he is growing like a weed. Apparently I don't like being up to date. That's ok. I feel like people that care how Carson is doing talk to me anyways.
Im working through a lot of things right now. I have recently been having a really hard time with my job/ career decisions. I am really unhappy, but have no idea what to do with my life. Nursing has always been in the back of my head and I know its because I am kicking myself for changing my major in college. At this point in my life, I just have to evaluate everything going on and decide if its feasible with a husband, kid, and 2 dogs (yes, they count). Its a lot of $$, and a lot of time dedication. Do I put a hold on having any more kids? Do I do something for myself? I am just having a hard time figuring out what is going to make me happy, as well as my family.
I wish I could go back and re-do college. I loved spending so much time with my friends and its so hard when most of them live 1.5+ hours away. And I wish I could re-do my commitment to schoolwork. I really wish I would have done a better job with classes and cared more. You never realize the important things until its too late..
Oh well, I guess everything works out the way it is supposed to. I just wish it would do it soon... :(
