I feel like a horrible blogger. I made this blog so that I was able to keep everyone up to date on Carson and how he is growing like a weed. Apparently I don't like being up to date. That's ok. I feel like people that care how Carson is doing talk to me anyways.
Im working through a lot of things right now. I have recently been having a really hard time with my job/ career decisions. I am really unhappy, but have no idea what to do with my life. Nursing has always been in the back of my head and I know its because I am kicking myself for changing my major in college. At this point in my life, I just have to evaluate everything going on and decide if its feasible with a husband, kid, and 2 dogs (yes, they count). Its a lot of $$, and a lot of time dedication. Do I put a hold on having any more kids? Do I do something for myself? I am just having a hard time figuring out what is going to make me happy, as well as my family.
I wish I could go back and re-do college. I loved spending so much time with my friends and its so hard when most of them live 1.5+ hours away. And I wish I could re-do my commitment to schoolwork. I really wish I would have done a better job with classes and cared more. You never realize the important things until its too late..
Oh well, I guess everything works out the way it is supposed to. I just wish it would do it soon... :(
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
It's been too long...
It has been such a long time since I have written here. I started this far later than I wanted to, and then have slacked again.
So much has changed since the last post. Carson will be 9 months old on Monday. That is amazing to me. He is such a little man with such an amazing personality already. I see so much of both of us in him on a daily basis. He has his daddy's facial expressions and my laid back demeanor. Every day is a new adventure with him.
Carson started crawling about a week after he turned 7 months old. I couldn't believe it! He is all over the place now. At times, I feel like he is going to take off and start walking any day. He loves to stand and gets excited, which in turn makes him fall down. He is such a wonderful little boy.
I read a blog this morning that was posted by a friend. Their 4 month old daughter died last week while at the babysitter's house. She stopped breathing and was unable to be saved. I read the blogs that her mother has been writing since the day she died. All I could think of was, "What if that happened to me?" I can't even think about how that would effect me. I look forward to spending time with Carson every day, seeing him grow into a little man. I don't know how I would handle losing him so suddenly, or at all for that matter. There is nothing more sad that parents burying their children. I never understood the depth of that statement until I became a mother myself. And I can honestly understand now why they say a parent's love is unconditional. I couldn't imagine never having a relationship with my boy. It's one of God's greatest gifts. I don't know how some take advantage of that and live with that decision...
I am truely blessed with a wonderful husband and a wonderful little boy that reminds me of his daddy every day. Life is so short...and it's really too bad that it takes losing people close to you to make you realize that.
So much has changed since the last post. Carson will be 9 months old on Monday. That is amazing to me. He is such a little man with such an amazing personality already. I see so much of both of us in him on a daily basis. He has his daddy's facial expressions and my laid back demeanor. Every day is a new adventure with him.
Carson started crawling about a week after he turned 7 months old. I couldn't believe it! He is all over the place now. At times, I feel like he is going to take off and start walking any day. He loves to stand and gets excited, which in turn makes him fall down. He is such a wonderful little boy.
I read a blog this morning that was posted by a friend. Their 4 month old daughter died last week while at the babysitter's house. She stopped breathing and was unable to be saved. I read the blogs that her mother has been writing since the day she died. All I could think of was, "What if that happened to me?" I can't even think about how that would effect me. I look forward to spending time with Carson every day, seeing him grow into a little man. I don't know how I would handle losing him so suddenly, or at all for that matter. There is nothing more sad that parents burying their children. I never understood the depth of that statement until I became a mother myself. And I can honestly understand now why they say a parent's love is unconditional. I couldn't imagine never having a relationship with my boy. It's one of God's greatest gifts. I don't know how some take advantage of that and live with that decision...
I am truely blessed with a wonderful husband and a wonderful little boy that reminds me of his daddy every day. Life is so short...and it's really too bad that it takes losing people close to you to make you realize that.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Our 1st Blog
So we have decided that it may be kind of cool to start a blog about our family and how it is rapidly changing!
Our family has changed so much in the past year and a half. May 30, 2009 Jason and I got married after 8 years of dating. It was an amazing day, better than we could have ever imagined. We were so grateful to have such great people there to celebrate a perfect day with us.
On October 1st, 2009- we got the great news that we would be expecting our first child. We couldn't have been more excited. The pregnancy went great. I can honestly say that I enjoyed being pregnant. It is such an amazing process to me. After 9 long months of anticipating and 36 hours of labor, Carson Patrick Ernst was born at 1:50pm weighing in at 7lbs 14.1oz and 19 inches long.
Carson is almost 4 months old now, and we cannot believe how fast our little man is growing. He just started rolling over and loves "standing up". He can support his weight as long as he has something to lean up on and can stand for about a minute at least! Before we know it, he is going to be crawling and talking.
Our family has changed so much in the past year and a half. May 30, 2009 Jason and I got married after 8 years of dating. It was an amazing day, better than we could have ever imagined. We were so grateful to have such great people there to celebrate a perfect day with us.
On October 1st, 2009- we got the great news that we would be expecting our first child. We couldn't have been more excited. The pregnancy went great. I can honestly say that I enjoyed being pregnant. It is such an amazing process to me. After 9 long months of anticipating and 36 hours of labor, Carson Patrick Ernst was born at 1:50pm weighing in at 7lbs 14.1oz and 19 inches long.
Carson is almost 4 months old now, and we cannot believe how fast our little man is growing. He just started rolling over and loves "standing up". He can support his weight as long as he has something to lean up on and can stand for about a minute at least! Before we know it, he is going to be crawling and talking.
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