I feel like a horrible blogger. I made this blog so that I was able to keep everyone up to date on Carson and how he is growing like a weed. Apparently I don't like being up to date. That's ok. I feel like people that care how Carson is doing talk to me anyways.
Im working through a lot of things right now. I have recently been having a really hard time with my job/ career decisions. I am really unhappy, but have no idea what to do with my life. Nursing has always been in the back of my head and I know its because I am kicking myself for changing my major in college. At this point in my life, I just have to evaluate everything going on and decide if its feasible with a husband, kid, and 2 dogs (yes, they count). Its a lot of $$, and a lot of time dedication. Do I put a hold on having any more kids? Do I do something for myself? I am just having a hard time figuring out what is going to make me happy, as well as my family.
I wish I could go back and re-do college. I loved spending so much time with my friends and its so hard when most of them live 1.5+ hours away. And I wish I could re-do my commitment to schoolwork. I really wish I would have done a better job with classes and cared more. You never realize the important things until its too late..
Oh well, I guess everything works out the way it is supposed to. I just wish it would do it soon... :(
It will all work out! And there's nothing wrong with being a little bit selfish, if you don't do something for yourself now, you may never have the chance to later. And if you're unhappy now and don't do something about it now....what will things be like later? Try some things out and do be intimidated by anything :) you will be great!
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